eternity

I wanna set the world on fire	...until it's burning bright for You

About this Entry
Posted by: sarahwarah Original: 6/14/2008 9:41 PM Views: 71 Comments: 2 eProps: 4 Read Comments Post a Comment Back to Your Xanga Site

Who gave the eProps?
2 eProps from: cabdriver debbie26

Saturday, June 14, 2008

It'd be just great if I could live each moment with an eternal perspective. I'd have less anxiety, fear and insecurity for myself and others. How much more effective I could be in my life in everything I do! I heard this message of having an eternal perspective on every situation today both in my bible study group at Arcadia and on Jonathan's xanga. It's a lot to meditate on.

I focus so much on details and too much on what's right in front of me that I don't see what really matters, which is probably why I am so exhausted and anxious all the time. What really matters is my character and how I handle myself in these situations...and as of late I've not been handling myself very well and all my character flaws have been flaring up. I have a lot of work to do. I do see where I need to change my character...not to please others but because that's what will carry over into eternity.

living for eternity > living for the moment

Like my foot for example...because I haven't been able to do anything that requires walking, I've been feeling pretty crappy. But that's just for now and I forget that I won't be like this forever.

I just realized I haven't updated on how my foot has been doing post-cast (I got it off 2 weeks ago).

Here's what it looks like now:

Not so bad huh? Anyway, I could care less about what it looks like as long as it works!! I've been walking without any help as long as it's only for short distances and never have I felt so grateful to take steps without any crutch or brace. It's a bittersweet moment to feel the freedom as well as the throbbing pain that starts to creep on me as I take each step. So it's still a work in progress...a couple more weeks/months and I hope to be walking more normally without pain.

I used to dread the scar on my foot, but now with a more eternal perspective I know that it's a mark of a huge trial that Jesus has walked through with me. He was the source of my strength and He will continue to be for every step that I take (Thanks, yvo <3). I've never been so thankful to have the privilege of walking on two feet and the scar will remind me again and again that He is my healer and Savior for my every day.

I used to wish that I could rewrite history
I used to dream that each mistake could be erased
Then I could just pretend
I never knew the me back then

I used to pray that You would take this shame away
Hide all the evidence of who I've been
But it's the memory of
The place You brought me from
That keeps me on my knees
And even though I'm free

Heal the wound but leave the scar
A reminder of how merciful You are
I am broken, torn apart
Take the pieces of this heart
And heal the wound but leave the scar

I have not lived a life that boasts of anything
I don't take pride in what I bring
But I'll build an altar with
The rubble that You've found me in
And every stone will sing
Of what You can redeem

Don't let me forget
Everything You've done for me
Don't let me forget
The beauty in the suffering

Posted 6/14/2008 9:41 PM - 71 Views - 4 eProps - 2 comments

recommend
recs0
share
email
sent0

Give eProps or Post a Comment

2 Comments

wowz...that's an awesome scar :]

Posted 6/14/2008 10:35 PM by cabdriver - reply

that is huge. i can't imagine how frustrating and painful it must be... living for eternity is such a hard concept in our society, which focuses on living for now. I constantly forget it...

Posted 6/15/2008 7:23 PM by debbie26 - reply

Choose Identity

Xanga Network

Anonymous (Sign up for free!)